Grief?

God… please… give me this life… this simplicity… strip me to nothing but nature and survival and I could be good, I could be decent… I could pray every day and send good into the world…

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Um… Does this sound like the bargaining stage to anyone else? (Grief stages.) I was just in depression, does this mean I’m going fucking backwards?? If I’m going to go backwards could I have denial back?? That would be super…

Fuck, I’m bargaining again…

I’m going to the damn store. See how I find every way NOT to take care of myself? (Um… anger stage? … 😐 … DAMN YOU PSYCH DEGREE!!)