Practicing Compassion

I’ve had a very rough few days, and Sir pointed out that while accountability to my writing is important, working on my self-compassion is also important and that we can work on a balance of the two. This weekend it felt like hostility to force myself to post and I was struggling with a lot of condemnation of myself for not living up to my expectations, but it felt incredibly helpful to give myself the time, consciously (not because I just let it slide off the bottom of the list) to take care of myself and not post.

I did do some writing, just nothing for public consumption, and that felt (aside from my complete inability to let go of the whole “not meeting expectations” thing) like a mature and responsible and compassionate choice.

I’m quite ill right now, so I’m also making the choice to write only this and then go to bed. Well, take a lot of medicine and then go to bed. Early.

I’m just a ridiculous font of responsibility and compassion right now.