Bad News
I got some bad news yesterday. Â And some bad possibility that won’t be answered for a few more days. Â And… I just… I just can’t.
I didn’t post last night.
I should do a back post tonight to make up for it.
But I can’t.
I can’t write now.
I feel like I’m living under the pendulum and it is only a matter of time until it eviscerates me.
And all the time until then I have to watch it come closer and closer knowing the inevitable end.
Someone told me today I would survive this, which… is a stupid thing to say. Â Surviving this is the last thing I want to do. Â Surviving means I have to be here to watch it all happen. Â I have to suffer and grieve and… still be alive with that grief forever.
I don’t want to survive this.
I don’t want to talk about it.
I don’t need anything.
I just can’t right now.
One Comment
villemezbrown
I’m so sorry.