Greetings from the Plague Ship
So… yeah… It’s been shit around here. I got sick. Then SB got sick, then Sir got sick, then I got REsick, then Sir got SUPER sick, now I’m finally starting to feel better, SB is surviving through drugs, and Sir missed three days of work and is on antibiotics.
Sigh.
I just ate a shit ton of carbohydrates… like… 100… so.. yeah… fuck you ketosis… fuck you body… pretty much shitting all over you tonight.
Actually I feel kind of bad about it now. And not because it’s against the rules, like… authentically I feel bad for hurting my body. That’s some kind of progress isn’t it? Sir just said if I try to make myself puke he will beat me, and it will really suck cause that will mean he has to stand up and then he’ll puke, so I better not. Sir has a double ear infection and when he moves the world spins… 🙁
I had an ear infection earlier this week, but it seems to have cleared up.
Sir had to get drugs.
I’m incredibly tired.
And I feel terribly anxious. I don’t really know what about, I just feel it in my body. It is like a cold fist inside of my stomach. It’s really been there all week, but it gets better and worse. Right now, it’s worse.
I feel very lonely right now, which is weird since there are people literally arms-length away. People I love, even.
It’s weird when you can feel lonely in the presence of people who love you.
And I had dinner with a co-worker tonight and we talked a lot and became closer. She wants to go get a massage with me (because I’m afraid to go get a massage).
But somehow I’m feeling terribly anxious, even though I had good dinner, and good social time, and now time with Sir and SB who are almost not dying of the plague right now.
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