Back posting

I KNOW, I missed a day. I have failed in my commitment. Sir says that is unreasonable thinking that leads to failure. I say it’s just logic… The world is a harsh place!

He says post two tonight and call it good.

I say, he lives in a very pleasant fantasy world that has no overlap with the reality in which I exist.

And… I’ll just shut up and do what he says now…

So, yesterday I fell asleep on the couch at 6:30 in the evening. Sir dragged me to bed around 10… then I had a panic attack and couldn’t go back to sleep and laid in bed trying not to vibrate so much it woke up the boys.

Sir noticed and took me downstairs with him and we slept on the couch. Or, neither of us slept much, but he kept me under control all night and I was able to go to work today at least.

And I got everything done today. I even got an improvement on last year. I finished cleaning my classroom an hour before my checkout time, and I didn’t even shove crap in closets… I even managed to ORGANIZE some of the closets I already had crap shoved into and threw out about 40 pounds of trash and recycling. It feels pretty good.

Maybe in ten years I’ll have this whole teaching thing down.

Then I came home and spent the afternoon on a webinar (for teaching), and reading my two new strategies books (of teaching) and Sir is getting annoyed with my inability to let go and relax for a single day.

But it’s not like I would have relaxed today anyway because I had to clean my classroom all day, so… why not use up the rest of a day that’s already mostly taken up with work??

Sir disagrees.

We seem to have a fundamental difference of philosophy… He actually believes in… I don’t know… self-care or something.

Weirdo.