Personal Journal
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Doing everything right…
And still failing.
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Still me…
For anyone who might have wondered after my last post if I have lost my mind, been captured by shape-shifting aliens (though they wouldn’t even have to be shape-shifting, just capable of using a keyboard…), been seduced by a cult, or in any other way thinking thoughts that someone ought to call out the men with butterfly nets…Â I’m still me!Â
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Productivity
Oh therapy blog, how I love thee…
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I slept with my ex…
Yep. Sigh…
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For those keeping track…
Sorry to everybody I owe emails to, and comments I haven’t responded to. I had a better day today. Really doing quite a lot better. Then literally…six minutes ago…everything crashed.
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I am not a switch…
I have said it so many times… I picture myself Nixon-esque in my denial. And maybe equally dishonest… Although not as intentionally as he was.
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Obligations
I got an email this week… from the archivist at a spanking story website…Â They want to post my old F/M writing that I’ve taken off the web.Â
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Good News Sadness
I got good news today. About time, huh? Cause we all know the universe OWES us and life is just one big math equation that eventually has to even out on both sides, right? Yeah…
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An Exercise
My therapist says that I dissociate by going to my intellect. I detach from my emotions and become extremely intellectual, chasing my own logical tail until my paws are bloody… I’ve written three posts in the last three days. Every one turns into a rant. And an intellectual tail-chasing. She says when I do that, I need to look at what I’m avoiding feeling. Why would I want to do that? Clearly I’m avoiding it for a reason! I say let nature do its thing and don’t mess with it!Â
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Days will come…
Days will come…